Being a mum is truly one of the hardest and most challenging jobs in the world despite what anyone says.
Nothing could have prepared me for what was to come.
The last five months has been so many things.
Happy
Tiring
Sad
Exhausting
Frustrating
Emotional
Joyful
Tiring... Did I say that already?
There are so many moments where I wish that I could stop the time and just have a minute and soak it all in.
The time where we both fell asleep on the floor exhausted.
When you woke up next to me and just smiled and did your sweet little baby talk.
When you tried to grab my face but left a big scratch under my nose because you don't quite
know what gentle means yet...
The smiles I get when I jump in front of you and tell you that 'I'm gonna get you, I'm gonna get you!
But then how frustrated you get because you want to play and sleep at the same time
and when you get annoyed because you don't know what you want.... And sometimes, either does mummy...
I think I expected there to be some kind of 'baby manual'. Somewhere that would tell me what I was suppose to do... But for some reason, I just can't seem to find 'this' manual.
I look forward to hearing the first word that comes out of that little mouth. What will it be? Mama? Daddy? bug?
Who knows, but all i know is that I don't want to miss it.
Ah the moments.....
I am in love.
I love you my sweet little Jacob, all I want is for you to grow up big and strong and most of all, happy.
